Well stated Peter!
 
You are not alone on your lonely path, seemingly driven by your inner guidance to perceive, think, act and do as you 'feel' compelled to do.
But there are not many.
About December 1st, 2012, for the first time in recorded history, the human populus will reach 7 billion.
That means that then there will be as many people 'alive in embodiment' on this planet as the sum total
of 'incarnations' for that recorded history.
One could say, that ALL the 'discarnate souls' from the universe's beginning and associated with the humanoid genus will 'be here' to 'witness' a nexus point, say a metamorphosis of the old into the new.
 
According to certain 'documents' and 'writings of antiquity', the harmonisation of the eonold human history engages certain percentiles, linked to notions of science in the 'butterfly effect' and the '100th monkey syndrome'.
 
Of those 7 billion Gaian inhabitants in 2012, 90% are unable to entertain themselves with philosophical questions in regards to purpose and ontology or the 'raison de etre'; being too busy in divers modes of survival and the necessities of life, such as escaping from warzones, water, food, shelter and basic security issues.
The remaining 700 million inhabitants are able to 'think about the reason for 'being here'', but again, only about 10% or 70 million render such 'ponderings' more significance, than a passing interest, discussed by the 'experts' on the media channels, TV, films, books and the internet. Of those then, about 90% or 63 million are satisfied to read a book or two and see a movie or three and 'hope for a favourable outcome' in one of many 'possible futures' for themselves and the world around them.
 
Then about 7 million of the 'serious thinkers' find themselves in a mode of selfperception and self-analysis. They engage in a search for the 'Holy Grail' of selfknowledge and a significant part of their 'external lives' becomes 'shadowed' by an exploration of their 'inner lives'.
Many of those 1/10th of a percent of the human populus become seriously dissatisfied with the appearances of the external world and the status quo of 'general acceptance' of the things as they are portrayed to be by the 'puppeteers' in control of the politico-economic and the socio-cutural agencies of control, including the issues of 'law and order', international security and the spiritual mythologies.

Next are the percentiles for 1/100th of a percent of the human population, distributed in a gaussian statistical distribution, say 350,000 'human natural philosophers' at the 'negative' 5% marker and 5% at the 'positive' 5% marker.
 
The 'negatives' are the 'Dark Illuminated Ones' as the 'Harmonisers' of the 'Light within' with the 'Darkness without'.
These are the 'puppeteers', the controllers of the worldy affairs in the mentioned agendas of politics, organised spirituality and the data dissemination via physical media channels.
The 'negatives' are 'Lightbringers' or Lucifers in that they honour the 'light within' in a mode of selfperception, which can be termed the Unity of the Oneness within the encompassing separation.
The 'negatives' so serve the Oneness in the individual and the personal integrity of the 'inner light' which, as they know, is equal for all incarnates.
The 'negatives' are well informed about the 'matrix of illusion'. They know, that there are no enemies without and that the 'publisized' conflicts and wars between factions, like science and spirituality or rightwing and leftwing or christian and muslim or catholic and protestant are all part of the 'mind-mechanics'.
The 'negatives' are 'in control' of the external world, because they are in harmony with themselves and by lineage and 'personal aspiration and connection' have  attained the 'priviledge to rule' (the kingdom of the world aka earth aka hell aka the below) without fiscal- and related constraints for their self-expression of their modus operandi - the servitude and honour of the Unity of the 'divine immortal' selfhood within the separation.
 
The 'positives' are the 'Light Olluminated Ones' as the 'Harmonisers' of the 'Darkness within' with the 'Light without'.
These are the 'puppeteers', the controllers of the unworldly affairs in the agendas of disorganised spirituality and data dissemination via unphysical media channels.
The 'positives' are 'Lightbringers' or Lucifers in that they honour the 'darkness within' in a mode of selfperception, which can be termed the Unity of the Oneness without an encompassing separation of subunits.
The 'positives' so serve the Oneness in the collective or depersonalised individual and the collective integrity of the 'inner darkness' which as they know, is equal as the context for the 'individual inner light' to be able to express itself.
The 'positives' are well informed about the 'matrix of illusion'. They know, that there are no enemies without and that the 'publisized' conflicts and wars between factions, like science and spirituality or rightwing and leftwing or christian and muslim or catholic and protestant are all part of the 'mind-mechanics'.
The 'positives' are 'in control of the internal world, because they are in harmony with themselves and by lineage and 'personal aspiration and connection' have attained the 'priviledge to rule over themselves' (the kingdom of heaven) with many fiscal- and related constraints for their self-expression of their modus operandi - the servitude and honour of the Unity of the 'divine immortal' selfhood without the separation.
 
1/500th of a percent of the incarnated genepool of 2012 comprises 140,000 individual cosmogenetic expressions of a collective 'soul-pool' of 7 billion.
So a 'negative percentile' of say 144,000/2=72,000 is 'harmonised' or balanced in a 'positive distribution' of 72,000 individuals in a 1/1000th percentile of 7.2 billion human inhabitants post the 2012 nexus yearcount.
The 'negatives of the external control of the bodymind' and the 'positives of the internal control of the mindbody' both harmonise the total populus of 7.2 billion as 1 in 100,000.
In terms of archetypical symbolisation however, the 144,000 reduce to 12 and 10 and 2 and 1, say as a 'Circle of Self-election or Self-Choosing'.
 
Every one of the 72,000 'negatives' and every one of the 72,000 'positives' is the One archetypical symbol.
The One becomes a Hero of the story, the opus and the mythology.
But the One must become Two in a Heroine, as the Unicorn cannot act alone and the 'Sword or the Words of the Excalibur' must be made twoedged and the circle of unity is meaningless without a frame of self-reference.
Similarly, the 'Circle of Unity' becomes extended in 10 to make 12 with a 13th locus point allowing the hero and the heroine as partnership to 'relate the adventure of the transformation of the old into the new'.
 
There is a very simple 'fairy tale' which retells the verbose exclamations and comparisons above.
 
The 'Dark Crystal' is a 'children's movie' about two old dying races by muppet creator Jim Henson (of the sesame street fame of Kermit the mindful male Frog and Miss Piggy the bodyful female counterpart).
The 'negatives' are the Skeksis-Skeptics, a reptilian tyrant race of cacophanous lizards reduced to 10 exponents and in control of the physical 'outer' world they inhabit.
The 'positives' are the Mystics-Believers-urRu, an unreptilian race of gentle dragons reduced to 10 exponents and in control of the metaphysical 'inner' world they inhabit.
The Skeksis conquered an ancient 'common playground' for both the older races (as the urSkeks) and drove the mystics underground.
The skeksis also enslaved a protohuman race in the 'podlings', who they use as a foodsource in harvesting an 'elixir for youth' from the podling's 'mindbody essence'.
The Skeksis also eliminated another protohuman race in the 'gelflings'; partly due to the fact, that it was prophesied, that the only threat to their worldly rulership would derive from 'gelfling hand'.
The Skeksis derive their 'power' and 'energy' from a 'Dark Crystal', which periodically recharges itself in the movement of celestial bodies and eclipses between suns, moons and planets.
 
But before the war, which brought the Skeksis to power, the crystal had been a 'Light Crystal' and a 'Crystal of Truth'. It had become 'dark' because a 'shard' was lost in the war; rendering the crystal 'dark'. The 'prophecy', commonly known by both the Skeksis and the mystics, was that 'by gelfling hand' and the missing light shard, the crystal could be made 'whole again' (and so disempowering the rule of the Skeksis).
 
The hero is the gelfling boy 'Jen', thinking himself the last survivor of the gelfling race, fostered by the mystics.
As the 'leader-king SkekSo' of the Skeksis is dying in harmony with the 'leader-king urSo' of the mystics; Jen is introduced to the 'prophecy' and his destiny to fulfil it by his mystic mentor urSo.
Soon, Jen partners with Kira, the heroine gelfling girl, who fostered by the podlings, also thought herself the last survivor of the gelfling race.
 
At the completion of the fairy-tale and after the dramas, the Skeksis of old and the mystics of old die in each of the 9 lords and the 9 antilords to blend in oneness in the mirror of the 'Dark Crystal' transforming into a 'Light Crystal' again.
 
So the self-chosen 144,000 as the One partnership is you, enticed by many external circumstances and experiences to 'play the role in the game of the cosmic transformatioms'.
 
You are Jen as the maleness-the yang-the mind(shadowbody)-the waveparticle nature and as the father-creator archetype.
You are Kira as the femaleness-the yin-the body(shadowmind)-the particlewave nature and as the mother-creation archetype.
 
You are both male and female as the partnership of the external 'darkness' with the internal 'lightness'.
You are the One, but you are alone; not yet unified with yourself.
Your Luciferic Light has 'lighted' your external darkness like a candle by your inner light, giving you an incarnate life.
Your Luciferic Darkness has 'darkened' your internal light like the extinguished flame of your inner darkness, giving you a discarnate life in the expectation of physical death.
The incarnate life is the 'collapse of the wavemind function' of your immortal being, rendering you a 'Zombie', a 'walking corpse' (or a decaying spirit) - Alive in the BodyParticle, yet Dead in the MindWave.
The discarnate life is the 'collapse of the particlebody function' of your immortal being, rendering you an 'Antizombie', a 'decaying corpse' (or a walking spirit) - Alive in the MindWave, yet Dead in the ParticleBody.
 
How to 'end this unsatisfactory state of the affairs' of the MindBody or WaveParticle Duality?
 
You are required to become Two in One; the 'negative evil' must become as one with the 'positive good'.
The hero Jen and the heroine Keera do not 'blend' to become the old 'reunification'.
Jen and Kira form a 'new' partnership, using the energy and the power of the old.
The old caterpillars of Jen and Kira enter the cocoon of the reunified crystal to emerge as a pair of butterflies.
Two individuated minds and bodies have become as One Mind in Two Bodies; using the Blending of the Old Minds and Bodies of Separation in the metamorphosis of the universal cosmogenesis and the neverending stories to be composed, written, played and acted by the Ones who are willing and able to play the game of life in the one and only story in existence.
This is the Story of the archetypes in the Book of Life by the Eternal Oneness. relishing the Separation of itself as Individuated parts of itself, yet always remaining just the One.
 
John Shadow

FUTURE SHADOWS OF THE PAST "A most wondrous thing the Shadow is, a redeemer in all to succour; it can go where the light cannot abide, seemingly banished, it is not. For where the light is, the darkness flees, no longer present to endure; so to become illuminated is its destined journey and its troubled lot. But without the light, no Shadow can be cast, its such a splendid key; the dimensions reduce in space from three to two and all in just the one. Betwixt the light and the darkness it is and part of both for all to see; the Shadow of the body, does it not merge all in its rule under the sun?   Whatsoever can cast a Shadow, must be a most wondrous thing to relay; as nature's very own offspring, the young ones grow towards their final goal. Enabled to bring peace to so many things appearing apart and so far away; the reconciliation for the suffering body with its spirit and its scattered soul."   http://tonyb.freeyellow.com/ and http://tech.groups.yahoo.com/group/quantumrelativity