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--- In Panentheism@yahoogroups.com, "singingthesea" <singingthesea@...> wrote:
I read in some places a few times that we dream in black and white but this is not true, like you say maybe we just don't often notice the colors. I often notice color in my dreams because it has symbolic meaning for me and i have always been fascinated by it so I use it in my dream work. There are some colors, such as the sea colors that I mentioned before, that have particular meaning for me and if I see them in a dream its like a flag waving that tells me I must remember the dream when I wake up and work with it.

 
--- In Panentheism@yahoogroups.com, lindasuepatterson@ wrote:
I actually never notice color, or the lack of it, in my dreams. I guess if I dreamed in black and white I would notice that, because it's different than real life.

 
Honour all of your dreams Cinderella.
Don't let the selfdeluded sceptics 'talk you out of your dreams' and don't let them question your rationality and your reasoning about them.
When you dream, you engage in something called Rapid-Eye-Movement-Sleep or REM-Sleep.
Neuroscience has found, that the dreaming selfstate of the psychophysical body relates to the alpha brainrhythms and has mapped the regions of the brain associated with the dreaming.
But neuroscience cannot relate the dreaming selfstate to your selfconscious experiences; because the materialistic viewpoint has no workable model for what consciousness represents in physical parameters.
 
I'll tell you the secret about your dreaming.
When you dream you actually experience a higher dimensional reality, which is just as 'real' as your waking state, but a reality, which is like a superposition onto what you term your waking state or your 'normal' conscious selfstate.
 
Technically speaking, your 'true self' (call it soul if you like); which is kind of 'trapped' in your 'normal' state enters an 'altered' state which is technically called 'hyperspace' or 'quantum space'.
 
As you know, many people actively seek such 'altered states' in the using of 'mind altering' drugs and other perception modifiers, such as hypnotic suggestions.
Guess what, when you dream and you then remember your dreaming; your dreamtime activities become a feedback mechanism, where you then talk to yourself across the dimensions (say the 3D-space and the hyperspace).
 
When someone or something physically 'dies', then the 'soul', which is a perfect electromagnetic replica of the 'memory' of the 'body' it encompassed moves just into this 'hyperspace' and continues the 'living experience' in terms of feelings and thoughts.
I have attached an article about this below:
 

 
The Leaf on a Twig on a Tree
 

Imagine yourself as a leaf on a twig on a branch of a living tree of life.
Your nourishment and lifesustaining substances derive from two sources; the light from the sun from above and from the roots of the tree from below.
Photosynthesis converts sunlight into sugars via the agency of chlorophyll and the roots provide water and minerals in a biochemistry based mainly on nitrogen.
As a leaf you are born in a bud and then you mature into a healthy green and geometric form determined in your individuated DNA.
 
Yet after a short season as a luscious green leaf of the tree you begin to get old and you start to wither away, eventually falling off the twig on the branch of the tree to the ground beneath.
After you have become all brittle, you simply fall apart as a dried up old exleaf and you become compost for the roots of the tree or the wind just scatters your ashes all over the place.
But as a brown dessicated leaf, something, a lifeforce or 'soul' had already left the dead leaf before it fell off the twig onto the ground beneath the treetop - where has it gone?
 
When you or anything physically 'dies', then your shadow-self, which is like your physical image in any mirror and which you can see and analyse in an optical sense, becomes the repository of all your memories and experiences and forms the library of everything you have ever thought, done or believed in.
Your subconscious, which keeps a holographic record of everything and is personified in the electrocapacitative and the magnetoinductive elements in the monopolic lifecircuitry, subject to your 'tuning' of your selffrequency in a search for resonance; so surfaces and you become an EMMR energy field, also known as your 'soul'.
 

So you find yourself rather unlimited in space and time, because the ElectroMagnetoMonopolic Radiation, which you have become as your invisible image in the mirror of spacetime is all pervasive or omnipresent; yet subject to your memory as yourself as experienced and perceived when you looked at yourself in a mirror say.
So you have become fluid in form, but all your intelligence and knowledge about your identity are still available, should you choose to constrict yourself in that form.
The stronger the memories and the desires to assume a more concrete form, the stronger will be the mindforce you can apply to manipulate the spacetime about your perceived environment.
 

The quality of your thinking now assumes a great importance.
Since the resonance with the source energy is the source frequency (fps), which is scripturally defined as the 'Love of God'; the closer you can approach or tune into that defining energystate of the UFoQR, the more power you will have to create and manoeuvre yourself about the place where you find yourself or where you believe yourself to be.
Should you be able to generate a great mental desire to meet your 'loved ones', who have 'passed over', then their individuated EMMR-fields will be able to generate forms recognisable to you, subject to the amount of 'love- or sourceawareness' you can actually manifest as the 'angular acceleration of the spacequanta', which defines the 'force of your mind'.
 

But you must remember, that all your 'loved ones' are potential universes in their own right and being 'passed over' into the oneness of the ocean of the omnipresent EMMR field, they automatically gain this state of unification superimposed onto each and every individuated 'soul' as subset of the encompassing EMMR-'oversoul'.

You see, it is quite the opposite to be in disembodiment, than to be in embodiment.
When in embodiment; the individual 'soul' is subject to the environmental pressures of the body and the mind.
 
Young teenagers feel more at ease, when they can share in a 'peergroup mind', they shun individual responsibility and search for a sense of belonging and togetherness.
Similarly, certain sporting events can generate a huge amount of groupmind activity; either in supporting a team or participator or in a form of violence and hooliganism, when the sense of the 'group' assumes rather primitive aspects of the survival instinct in a pretext of a mindset of 'us against them'.
 
So there is a challenge in the embodied state to become a true individual; it is much easier to follow a preset agenda and to eschew a thinking for oneself.
The natural state of the embodiment is to be a member of a group or race or tribe or family or elite or corporation or business or state or land or nation or planet or galaxy or what have you..
 
The opposite is the case in the disembodied state of being; there the groupmind is automatic and the difference is, that that groupmind is in harmony with itself and its environs.
There is no 'us against them', because everything and everyone's awareness is as one.

But the great challenge in the 'passed over' state of being is to differentiate oneself from that overpowering state of unity - a 'heavenly' bliss of peace and harmony and being able to 'love' and 'feeling loved' within an energyfield 'resonating' with the 'love' of the source energy.
 
After having lived a sorrowful life in embodiment; the 'soul' has come home and finds itself in its natural state of freedom and able to choose any ethereal form it so chooses for as long or short a time as it may desire to experience.

So what is the point for the 'soul' as subset of the 'oversoul' and defined as the EMMR of the UFoQR to incarnate in embodiment in the first place and the first instance, one may ask?
 
Well, you see that is a quest for the 'soul' to seek for wisdom, knowledge and understanding through experience and for the ultimate purpose to become its own source of energy, able to sustain worlds within worlds within its own energy field.
Hence every 'soul' must learn to recognise its source in becoming aware of itself and where it comes from and where it has the potential to go to.
 
And this brings us back to the dying leaf, falling from its source of sustenance, which had been the twig on the branch on the tree throughout its short life of green lushness.

Upon physical death, the 'soul' or lifeenergy of the leaf returns exactly the same way, as it had come to energise the leaf, being born from its budding state of the defining DNA.
 
And so the EMMR-'soul' of the leaf flows as a natural electricity, defined in the equation of (I(fLeaf)=2NefLeaf), where N is a quantisation of the electropole (e) in 4D-linespace of embodiment, mapped as the magnetopole (e*) in 12D-omnispace of disembodiment and potentially realised in 13D-omnispace in a superembodiment.
The leaf's 'soul' so passes into the twig into the branch and into the stem of the tree, which appears like a great tunnel of light for the 'soul' and leading towards a source of a magnetic light, drawing the 'soul' towards itself and the 'Mirror of the Last Judgment'.
 
But the 'soul' must journey through the 'underworld', before it can enter the Hall of the Decisions, which harbours the 'Mirror of the True Selfhood'.
The 'soul' could get 'lost' in a branch of the tree say and unable to find its way to the trunk of the tree, where the magnetic force of the sourcelight illuminates every 'soul' however 'lost' it might perceive itself to be.
So there are markers along the way; signposts of remembrances, which the 'soul' can recognise in the form of 'loved ones', might these be people or pets or objects; all is subject to the 'force of the desire' and the intensity of emotion the soul can generate to journey with 'clear vision'.
 
All objects and things have frequency equivalents and are unbounded in space or time relative to the 'souls' partitioning as subset of the encompassing EMMR field of the UFoQR.
But all thoughts and desires, all nightmares and dreams of whatever nature will and must surface in the soul's journey through its 'underworld' of subconscious definition.
 
So if a thought of 'Saint Peter at the Pearly Gate' is the expectation, that thought or desire must eventuate; as must all imaginings of 'hellish damnation'.
Because of the fluidity of the disembodied state however, many guides and helpers of the oneness are always readily available to superimpose more energetic states of awareness, simply by being present in their state of enhanced frequencies and so able to modulate the eigenstate of a 'soul' lost in its nightmarish expectation of a torturous hell for example.
 
Some 'souls' may have no expectations of the afterlife at all; and those 'souls' will encounter their being engulfed in an impenetrable fog or mistyness or any such idea of nothingness..
Any question asked by such a 'soul' after having pondered its state of existence, will however modify its environment of the 'nothingness' and so it will be forced by its own curiosity to begin exploring its position in space and time, relative to its own perception.
 
Eventually, all 'souls' will reach the stem of the tree, where the magnetic light and the sense of being 'loved' is so strong, the individual 'soul' cannot but remember its unison and origin as part of the source and will just surrender to its grand homecoming out of space and time.
Since the sense of time and space is selfrelative for all disembodied states; a 'soul' could choose to spend 'eternity' in a 'fog of the nothingness', but it would require a mind unable to think a single thought and an inability to ask a single question about itself.
 
Furthermore such a 'soul' would have to concentrate 'eternally' upon a single state of being in an absolute state of nothingness, whatever it imagines that nothingness to be.
And because of Heisenbergian Uncertainty and the Quantum Fluctuations of the vacuum, such a position would be untenable, because the Zero-Point-Oscillation of the Source Energy is defined in the formulation (Eps=hfps/2) as the minimum state of energy in any definition of the Zero state in energy - hence even the most stubborn 'soul' will have to 'suffer' its energisation by the source energy.
 
All 'souls' which have finished their journey through their individuated 'underworlds' and which have reached the trunk of the tree of life will find themselves rushing towards the magnetic sourcelight down the tunnel of the stem of the tree.
As a 'soul' reaches one of the roots of the tree, the tunnel converges and every root ends in the singularity of the 'Mustard Seed' at the termination of each and every root the 'soul' may have chosen to travel in towards the magnetic lightsource.
And so at the end of the tunnel, where any particular root of the tree ends the defined form of the tree of life; the 'soul' enters the 'Hall of Decisions' and sees itself positioned in front of the 'Mirror of the Last Judgment'.
 

Now in the 'Mirror of the Last Judgment' the 'soul' sees a most magnificent being; it is precisely the embodiment of beauty and glory the 'soul' could or would ever have imagined.
And the 'soul' realises that the mirror reflects the 'soul's' very own grandest idea of beauty and glory back to itself as the selfrealised being of itself.
But the being in the mirror, one might name it the 'Higher Self' or 'Overself' of the 'soul' is no mere image of the 'soul'.
 
The 'Oversoul' is as real as the 'soul' and in possesssion of all the knowledge, understanding and wisdom accumulated by the 'soul' in 19.11 billion years of experiencing consciousness as EMMR-subset of the encompassing EMMR of the Unified Field of  Quantum Relativity.
 
And the 'Oversoul' smiles at the 'soul' and begins to talk:
"Hello my sweet me; you have finally come back to try to answer your own questions for yourself yet again; how will you fare this time, have you found your two keys to open the two locked doors within this mirror to allow you to enter the space of the parenthood in setting us free from being separated, both of us being reflections in each other in front and within or behind this mirror?
 
Have you allowed yourself to find the Key of Wisdom or the Key of Understanding?
Or perhaps you have found both in a single lifetime; now that would be a wonderful achievement.
You were close last time, you had the Key of Wisdom in your grasp, but you could not put it in the keyhole and then you decided to get it right the next time and that time has now come I see.
 
You know that the first key is the Key of Wisdom; finding it will allow you to apply the second key of the understanding.
The Key of Wisdom is the correct answer to the question: "WHO ARE YOU?" and the Key of Understanding cannot be applied until you have answered the first question to your own satisfaction and as judged by yourself as myself.
You will only allow yourself to ask the second question through myself once you have judged yourself competent enough to attempt the unlocking of the door of understanding.
 
And the only clue you allowed yourself to be given through myself is that the Key of Wisdom is part of your female nature and that the Key of Understanding is part of your male nature.
So let us recall what your answer to the question: "WHO ARE YOU?" was the last time we met ourselves in this very location, when you said:
"I know that I am more than what I appear to be.
 
I have learned that my 'family' extends past my immediate blood relationships and that I am also part of my environment.
So I am part of the air I breathe and part of the garden I keep.
I tune into familiar minds with my friends and acquaintances and I share many things with the people I love and with whom I feel comfortable with.
I am part of my children's education and the companies I keep in all my aspects of my life.
 
I do try to help other people and attempt to be friendly and polite to everyone, even if I do not like particulars about them."

You then answered yourself through me in saying:
"When we arrived at our common acknowledgement at the beginning of space and time and when we made the covenant between ourselves, we decided that a partial wisdom and a partial understanding would be insufficient to open the locked doors; so I must inform you as myself, that your wisdom has grown in magnitude and in insight, but still remains at an undergraduate level."
 
And now we are here again in the 'Hall of our decisions' and I ask myself through you:
"WHO ARE YOU? and WHO AM I?"
And the 'soul' answered:
'I am all that is; I must be; because if I were not all that is, the entire creation, then there would be something in existence, which I am not and that is impossible, as all things are connected.
 
Modern science has shown that everything, from the minutest photon to the largest supercluster of galaxies are quantum entangled with each other.
So a solar system or a planet and all beings living upon it, being part of a galaxy, must be quantum connected with everything else as well; any other conclusion leads to logical selfcontradictions.
 

Any system of particles, molecules, atoms or things can only exist in one of two modes of operation; the two modes are Unity in Separation or Separation in Unity.
Unity in Separation leads to the individuated self and the egocentric personality; one perceives oneself as a 'free individual', separated from all other such 'free individuals' and one can then so very easily deceive oneself in considering a 'fake equality or egalitarianism' between people, thinking that every individual has only themselves to blame, if their life's journey falls upon hard times.
 
Unity in Separation is the 'Devil's Way' exemplified in the saying: 'Divide and Conquer'; but since the 'Devil's Modus Operandi' is selfrelative and just as valid as the alternative it is always available to all the wisdom seekers.
And I know, that I am my own masterdevil; only I make the choices and only I set my own agendas; but as we also know, it is only I, that must judge myself as to the portfolios and the decisions, appropriate or not, which I have made during my life's journey.
 
Did I value wisdom over worldly possessions, as Solomon did?
Did I discover the empathy and the compassion for others and the affinities, connecting me to the web of life and the oneness of the universe?
In short, am I able to walk in another's moccassins, am I able to imagine myself to be someone else, to truly feel what they are all about on the level of their 'souls', whereby we are all one in the disembodied state?
 
So my dear Beloved 'Oversoul', I am the Creation in my female essence and I am the Creator in my male essence.
And I have chosen the 'Way of Love' in the modus operandi of the Separation in Unity.
I know that all is One and that I am operating as a servant of the 'Loving Way' in surrendering my 'individual freedom' to operate as a Unit of Separation for limited periods of time; choosing instead to become eternally bonded to my own loving nature and the source of all of my energy - my God.'
 
And the 'Oversoul' cried in exuberance, with tears of joy flowing down its glowing cheeks:
'Yes my darling you have found the Key of Wisdom and I am allowed to tell you now, that your sacrifice of your 'individual freedom' is no sacrifice at all, but serves an ultimate purpose in your graduation and your life as a parent in true brothersisterhood with 'our God'.
 
The Goddess will individuate in you upon your graduation and you shall be freedom personified.
God himself shall be your bridegroom and the Goddess herself your eternal bride.
And now you are ready for the second question from yourself to yourself; but know, that there is a growing percentage of ' souls', say 0.2% at the present time, who have found their Keys of Wisdom.
To the present time however, not one 'soul' could find the Key of Understanding.
The second question is: "WHY ARE YOU WHAT YOU ARE AND HOW DID YOU COME TO BE?"
 
The 'soul' pondered for a moment and said:
'I do not know the full answer to that yet, but I know how to obtain the Key of Understanding, because of the nature of this question.
I do know, that I am the creation-creator duality because on the supreme level of that partnership there is the essence of Family, our family and the idea of generational reproduction.
 
So I am destined to become a generator for an individuated universe, which can then join the sister-brotherhood of universes within the enveloping omniverse.
To generate myself as FatherMother and as my own individuated source energy in the footsteps of  my cosmic and mathematically abstract parents, I shall have to bring their abstractness alive in realising them within and without myself in my dragonomy.
 
Somehow, to find the Key of Understanding, I shall have to learn in abstract terms, just what my mathematical and omniscientific archetypes are all about.
I can attempt to do this the 'easy way' or the ' hard way'.
If I choose to follow certain written manuals in an advanced mode of interpretation, such as 'sacred' scrolls and scriptures; then this will be the 'easy way' because of the metaphors and mythological language used in them.
 
If I am inclined however to do it the 'hard way', then I shall study mathematics and the sciences to obtain my understanding necessary to answer the second question fully and not only partially, as I have done.'

'You are very correct in you analysis', answered the 'Oversoul', you have given the appropriate reply as to why you are the creation and the creator in your sexual aspects and you have pinpointed the method of how to find the Key of Understanding.
 
You must create yourself in principle my sweetheart and you must find your place in the Book of Life, which you are required to write in coauthorship with what already has been written and what you are reading.
 
Once you are able to create your own Genesis, as your very own 'Naked Singularity' of abstraction, then you will be in possession of your perfectly fitting Key of Understanding.
The next time we meet, I feel you shall be able to set us free from being images of ourselves in the two of us separated ones trying to be one in two and two in one.' "
 


Whynot
 
 

--- In
Panentheism@yahoogroups.com, "singingthesea" <singingthesea@...>
wrote:
Im not sure why you call me cinderella but im happy to go with it.
Anyway I do love dreams and find them to be my greatest teachers. Im aware of
shamanic ideas about dreaming, the dream state and the dream plane.
In my recent dream that I recounted I am a teacher in that forest and
teach two children around 7 or 8 years old.
In many dreams of the past I had the forest as my home running bare
foot in a shift of cotton communicating with trees and sometimes
shapeshifting into dog form of some kind ( but not sure what sort
because i only could see my paws)
I feel this last dream has shown me something new about where my soul
is at

Oh, then I am pleased to call you Cinderalla singing from the seas and
enchanting Odysseus with her Siren-Songs.

You are becoming more in tune with your 'shamanic selfstate' because
'someone', namely YOU are calling yourself from the shamanic
perspective.

This is how your 'higher self' or 'oversoul' or 'alter ego' (well
somewhat, I am not clinical-Freudian but gnostic-Platonic-Jungian in
psychic affinity) communicates to you.

Now the MOST IMPORTANT thing about dreams is HOW YOU FEEL.

But you probably already know this from your affinities.

Ok, Cinderella, I consulted my oracles and this is what they said about
you.

Your running in the woods and the canine shapeshifting describes a link
not only to your past, but also to your future.

The paws relate not only the mythology of the lycanthrope (werewolf);
but more significantly to the transmutation of the Canine archetypology
into human consciousness.

Do you know what the brightest star in the nightsky is called?

Did you ever read or hear about the Dogons, a West African tribe of Mali
and the Nommo?

Did you ever read the Carl Sagan novel 'Contact' or see the movie of the
same name (with Jodie Foster as the SETI cosmologist)?

It's all to do with HOW the nonhuman lifeforms on earth are related to
the extraterrestrial lifeforms.

What does it mean?

Part of your soul is already where Sirius is. I feel, that you have a
very deep Sirian connection.

You have also a superstrong relationship with cetaceans, especially
dolphins. The impression I get is like you in some way ARE a dolphin in
terms of (magnetic) consciousness couplings .

But this is enough for now. I do not desire to be a fortune teller or
'psychic' on this site, so in some form I am.

Plato's Crystal Ball

PS.: Now I understand why I called you the siren from the Odyssean seas
before.

Terence McKenna November 16, 1946 - April 3, 2000   http://www.lysergia.com/FeedYourHead/McKenna/TerenceMcKenna.htm   TERENCE MCKENNA - PSYCHEDELICS,
 EVOLUTION & FUN

  by Patrick Lundborg
 

    I first came into contact with Terence McKenna some time around 1990. A friend had returned from San Francisco and brought home the usual stack of underground books, movies, records, information & gossip. All of it was processed and discussed over the course of a few stoned weekends, and our local frame of reference was updated with a sliver of Bay Area buzz.

Among the items up for scrutiny was a commercial video featuring Terence McKenna giving a lecture, augmented by psychedelic graphics. I already knew McKenna's name from somewhere, but this was my first encounter with his trademark monologues, and combined with the inventive acid visuals, the video had us nailed to our stoner sofa for the full duration.
 
Almost 20 years later, I still remember this so clearly that I had no problem identifying the old VHS release via Youtube clips (it turned out to be The Petaluma Experiment). At that time, my main preoccupation was with 1950s and 60s psychedelia, and I filed McKenna's name away for future examination. "Filing away" soon proved to be unwarranted, seeing how McKenna burst out of his California cult status onto the global arena, with special love extended from the European rave scene. Observing this, my internal contrarian -- who sometimes screws things up for me -- told me that interviews with Terence in London's über-hip i-D magazine was a sign for me to stay away, and thus it happened that my real, deep interest in the man and his work didn't come about until the 2000s, when he had already left our planet.

One of the most remarkable things about Terence McKenna is the constancy and internal consistency of his ideas. Thoughts and phrases presented at the height of his fame in the mid-1990s can already be found, sometimes verbatim, in his earliest works from the mid-70s. It seems that what McKenna learned during the fabled sojourn to the deep Amazon in 1971, and in the subsequent years when he and brother Dennis were perfecting the art of home-growing psilocybin mushrooms, opened a mine of concepts and language from which he could draw material for the rest of his career. It is a very rich and varied palette, but as you familiarize yourself with McKenna's catalog, you will discover a distinct set of ideas, criticisms, people and terms, that keep recurring.

The first sign of life from McKenna as a thinker, The Invisible Landscape (1975) which he co-authored with his brother Dennis, is dominated by Dennis' advanced technical ideas about consciousness, hallucinogens, and DNA. Although the book could only have been written and published in the strange and free-spirited mid-70s, it remains an interesting read. Terence's main contribution is the second half, which deals with his numerological re-interpretation of the I-Ching. He claims to have found a previously unknown structure in the ancient Chinese book, which predicts and identifies 'ingressions of novelty into time', on multiple temporal levels. The 'Timewave Zero' theory is essentially a graph, applicable on all human history, as well as on briefer local phenomena. The lowest points of the graph indicate important events and changes, and somewhat ominously it indicates an 'end of history' in 2012 -- a date which McKenna later found was also the end of the ancient Mayan calendar. 
 
The 'end of history' received plenty of mainstream attention in the early 1990s, following Francis Fukuyama's observations on the collapse of all ideologies except liberal democracy. At that time, fans of Terence McKenna had already heard it discussed for at least a decade. Of course, McKenna's perspective concerned humanity and our world in toto, and this eschatology remained one of his central ideas. It is repeatedly invoked as a visualized idea, a metaphysical hallucination, where the End Of The World is an attractor (sometimes called 'the Eschaton') which pulls evolution and human events towards it. Connected to this notion are two other central concepts of McKenna's; space migration from our planet into the stars, and the recent progress of human history as a concresence.

The term concresence comes from the British mathematician-philosopher A N Whitehead, who is most famous for writing Principia Matehematica with Bertrand Russell. Moving from mathematics to philosophy, Whitehead had published a few works which influenced McKenna a great deal. Like many of McKenna's sources, it is somewhat outside the mainstream of current intellectual thought, and even with that in mind, 'concrescence' is hardly a key term in Whitehead. In Process And Reality, Whitehead wrote that  "...the 'production of novel togetherness' is the ultimate notion embodied in the term 'concresence'". What McKenna developed from this is -- once again clearly visualized -- the notion of the era, meaning our era, as the coming-together of ideas and events toward an end-state at its center, like the tightening of a spiral around its axis.

It is not a giant step from eschatology to apocalypsis, and it's interesting to note that McKenna would often settle for leaving the nature of his envisioned end-state open. At other times, the listener finds that the end-state is not nuclear war or the collapse of capitalism, but rather the human race's migration into space. To McKenna, this was the natural evolution of man, "a monkey climbing aboard a spaceship" in his typically compressed metaphor. Yet, the specific contents of this space-travel vision remains one of the least elaborate in the many hundreds of hours of recorded lectures McKenna left behind. At times it even appears as a purely cerebral development, describing an internal state rather than any actual space-flight. In speeches given many years apart, McKenna mentions "the interorization of the body, and the exteriorization of the soul" in connection with these events in mankind's near future.

A reason for McKenna's vagueness on the nature of his eschatology may be that it could be seen to contradict another of his key themes, which is mankind's immediate connection to, and responsibility for, our natural environment. This is an idea where we today find him at his most prescient , and it's also an idea that developed naturally from his great love for plant-life in general and hallucinogenic plants in particular. His brother Dennis is a formally trained botanist, and some of Terence's works reflect an interest in flora that extends far beyond those of the average entheogen aficionado. This brotherly fascination reached its most fruitful expression in the underground classic Psilocybin, Magic Mushroom Grower's Guide (1976). Originally published under the pseudonyms O. T.  Oss and O. N. Oeric, the slim but information-packed volume has since been reprinted with the proper author names credited. While mainly a technical handbook on how to grow magic mushrooms in your own backyard (rather than in tropical pastures), some passages in the book reflect Terence's metaphysical ideas, and will be revisited farther down.

A more artistic expression of McKenna's love for nature and exotic plant-life can be found in his most ambitious work, the 'talking book' True Hallucinations (1984).

The printed version (1993) of the same title is more commonly seen today, but its original appearance was as a set of 8 cassettes in a custom-designed clam-shell box, with a cover price of  $80 (a lot of money at the time). Original rock music, environmental ambience and psychedelic sound effects expand the spoken word recording into something uniquely memorable; an experience of atmosphere as much as the re-telling of a "ripping good story".

Clocking in at about 9 hours, True Hallucinations describes a trek deep into the Amazon basin in Southern Colombia that McKenna undertook along with his brother Dennis and a few fellow travelers in 1971. It is the most detailed account McKenna ever gave of his life-altering experiences in the tropical rain forest, which seem fuelled as much by personal circumstances and the milieu, as by the mushroom and ayahuasca experiment around which the storyline is built. Much of the work's strength comes from the well-written and arresting descriptions of the natural environment and the co-explorers. Parts of the material seems to come from a book manuscript with literary (not just documentary) aspirations, but given Terence's extraordinary qualities as a spoken word performer, the audio format is the best imaginable presentation of it. Other parts seem ad-libbed before a small circle of listeners, and the mood is occasionally loosened with laughter.

The La Chorrera journey has taken on somewhat legendary proportions over the decades, but a brief summary may be in order. In 1971 Terence McKenna, unpublished and unknown, found himself with a non-descript Berkeley degree in shamanism and no clear prospects for the future. He'd been in on the hippie seeker trail to the East, dabbled in spiritual work in India, collected butterflies in Indonesia, taught English in Japan, and was -- according to a comment made much later -- "wanted by Interpol". A friend's suggestion to go down to the Amazon to look for aboriginal drugs suddenly seemed attractive, and a small travelling party was assembled, including Terence's younger brother Dennis (21 at the time). The McKennas had lost their mother not long before, an event which brings a subtle undertone of melancholy to the True Hallucinations storyline.

After an ardous journey via plane, river-boat and a 110-mile walk through the Colombian jungle, the destination is reached; a small village/mission deep in the Amazon basin near the Peruvian border, completely cut off from the world. McKenna's obvious rapport with the rain forest helps create a vivid, arresting picture of the environment they pass through, and the often strange characters they meet. The atmosphere is thick, and there is an underlying tension that slowly mounts. Except for an idea to examine a few loose ends in the works of ethnobotanists such as Richard Evans-Schultes, the purpose of the expedition appears to have been a quest for adventure, and this would soon present itself.

The McKenna brothers had come looking for yage (ayahuasca) and the obscure hallucinogenic admixture okojee, but upon arrival at La Chorrera, the focus rapidly shifted. A pasture near the village was full of psilocybe mushrooms, and a steady intake of these powerful agents had a profound effect on the small party of Americans. Dennis McKenna, who is in many ways the main character of True Hallucinations, was particularly affected. After several days with mushrooms and increasingly odd behavior, he had developed a theory on how the psilocybin, combined with the harmaline in an ayahuasca brew provided by friendly tribesmen, could effect a permanently altered state of consciousness, which would allow for direct readouts from DNA, and change the course of human history. This theory, which also informs the aforementioned The Invisble Landscape, is described in great technical detail on the audio tapes and makes for a somewhat awkward clash with the poetic rainforest descriptions that surrounds it.


Dennis & Terence McKenna, 1975
As tensions within the expedition mount, "the experiment at La Chorrera" is performed, and an increasingly dissociated Dennis McKenna proclaims it a success. Brother Terence is unsure of what exactly has passed, but the following two weeks finds Dennis in a schizophrenia-like state of withdrawal and delphic utterances, while a bewildered but somehow euphoric Terence discovers that he no longer needs any sleep, and spends his days and nights listening to his brother, and thinking. The I-Ching reinterpretation described above emanates during this strange period, as do a lot of other novel ideas that McKenna later would propagate. As the days pass, Dennis McKenna slowly returns to a more conventional frame of mind, and not long after, the group leaves La Chorrera to return to civilisation.

One thing that makes True Hallucinations unusual in McKenna's oeuvre is that it's relatively free from the fringe science speculation that would make him famous. It is mainly a documentary-literary work whose emphasis is on milieus, events and people. The technical and philosophical elements that do occur are connected to the "experiment" and its tangents. Although not presented until 13 years later, this suggests that while McKenna's vast knowledge of esoterica and science was already in bloom, he had not yet found his creative thinker muse. Yet, given the importance that McKenna would assign to the La Chorrera expedition throughout his career, it must have been there that he found his calling as a freewheeling philosopher, a role that would be elaborated and expanded during his mushroom experiments for the rest of the 1970s. Entering the '80s, Terence McKenna's sharp and witty mind was filled to the brim with original ideas, for those who were willing to listen.

A notion already present in Colombia 1971, and given substantial room in True Hallucinations, is the UFO phenomena. As McKenna would later describe it, his UFO interest was piqued by Carl Jung's Flying Saucers: A Modern Myth of Things Seen in the Skies (1959). Jung was interested in the flying saucer reports as a mass psychic phenomena, and their potential connections to his theories about the collective subconscious. McKenna describes personal UFO and alien sightings in both Colombia and Hawaii, yet much like Jung, he seems uninterested or unconvinced of the physical actuality of these visitations. With typical diligence, he scrutinized the UFO literature until he found a writer worth taking seriously, the Frenchman Jacques Vallée. While UFO:s were in vogue in the late 1970s and early 1980s, it is surprising to see how this aspect was made a key element in the presentation of True Hallucinations, highlighted by the cover drawing as well as the concluding chapters. McKenna would return to the UFO issue many times, but like space migration, it's not a topic where he would elaborate much beyond a few specific viewpoints. As the '80s rolled on, public interest in flying saucers declined, which surely affected his orientation. In the Tree Of Knowledge workshop series from Colorado 1992, he refers to "my extraterrestrial phase" as a thing of the past.

Connected to both UFO and space migration is another field in which Terence McKenna's interest never would fade: Evolution. Indeed, cultural and biological evolution became his central themes during the final decade of his career, and they form a cornerstone of his most mainstream work, Food Of The Gods (1992). This evolutionary theme has proven fruitful with later writers, such as Graham Hancock's best-selling Supernatural, where the debt to McKenna is clearly and generously stated.

An early expression of McKenna's interest in evolution can be found in the Psilocybin - Magic Mushroom Grower's Book from 1976. An introduction describes McKenna's contact with a mushroom spirit, whose dramatic 'message' contains much of what he would later reiterate and brood upon:

I am old, older than thought in your species, which is itself fifty times older than your history.Though I have been on earth for ages I am from the stars. [...] Since it is not easy for you to recognize other varieties of intelligence around you, your most advanced theories of politics and society have advanced only as far as the notion of collectivism.

But beyond the cohesion of the members of a species into a single social organism there lie richer and even more baroque evolutionary possibilities. Symbosis is one of these. [...] Symbiotic relationships between myself and civilized forms of higher animals have been established many times and in many places throughout the long ages of my development.

These relationships have been mutually useful; within my memory is the knowledge of hyperlight drive ships and how to build them. I will trade this knowledge for a free ticket to new worlds around suns younger and more stable than your own [...].

This speaking voice "in the head" is a phenomena specific to psilocybin, and one reported frequently by mushroom trippers. McKenna referred to it as the Logos, drawing his meaning of that term from the ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus. The Logos is a friendly, wise, occasionally impatient teacher, with whom McKenna would carry on many conversations over the years. As he himself remarked, contemporary society would deem this a kind of mental illness, while in another age it would be the mark of a saint. A 1996 study showed a remarkable consistency in the characteristics of this mushroom voice, and the phenomena remains unexplained. McKenna did not concern himself with the how and why of the Logos communication, but focused upon the contents of its dialogue.

In terms of evolutionary biology, the Logos' self-declaration above resembles certain theories that have been bandied about in mainstream science. Nobel Prize-winning biologist Francis Crick developed the theory of
directed panspermia , which suggests that the earliest developments of life on earth may have been caused by the distribution of biochemical agents from other parts of the universe. Due to certain unexplained jumps in the development of primitive organisms, this theory and variants continues to be debated among evolutionary biologists. As a sidenote, Francis Crick testified on his deathbed that LSD had helped him visualize the DNA structure, the scientific breakthrough for which he is most famous today.

Although Terence McKenna would often touch upon macro-evolutionary issues, his main interest here was undoubtedly the cultural evolution that the hallucinogenic agents may have caused. During the last decade of his career the "stoned ape" hypothesis rose to become his central idea, and one that he's strongly associated with. The theory suggests, in summary, that the earliest socio-cultural developments of man's ancestors was triggered by the consumtion of psilocybin mushrooms. In prehistoric times in Africa, the emergence of nomadic pastoralism would make available large quantites of these mushrooms, which grow naturally in cattle dung. The evolutionary advantage they bring works on three distinct levels, according to McKenna: 1) small doses increase visual acuity, which is an advantage for hunters; 2) medium doses triggers sexual arousal and lead to uninhibted mating (i e, group sex orgies), which accelerates reproduction; 3) high doses lead to spiritual experiences and glossolalia, which lead to the invention of religion and the invention of language.

In addition to these aspects, McKenna suggested that the group mating created a non-patriarchic, genuinely collective society, as the issue of fathership was unclear and meaningless. In other words, all children were raised by the entire collective, and strong internal bonds came from this. The embryonic religious orientation in this environment McKenna describes as feminine, experience-oriented, and informal. Then, due to climate changes in the African grasslands, the nomadic groups moved north, and somewhere along the way they lost the companionship of the coprophilic psilocybe mushroom. In Food Of The Gods, this casting out of paradise is discussed in great detail, although the historical-archeological proof that McKenna presents (from Northern Africa and Asia Minor) is sporadic and limited. Occurring some 12.000 years ago, McKenna describes the era before this downfall as "the last sane moment of man-kind". As recorded history began, what is called "dominator" cultures arose, and the pastoral-collective goddess culture of the stoned ape of Africa was lost, and things have been going downhill ever since. According to the theory.


Backtracking some, there are not many cataloged works from Terence McKenna between the mushroom grower's handbook from 1976 and the True Hallucinations talking book from 1984. During this low-profile period he planted the seeds of what would become his true forte, the spoken word performances. From what I understand, McKenna's bardic eloquence was first heard on late-night radio in California. In the early '80s, he gave his earliest (recorded) lectures, New And Old Maps Of Hyperspace
from 1982 being the first one listed in the most thorough bibliography. There would be hundreds, literally, over the next 17 years.

McKenna's strength as an orator is unique in psychedelic history, or in contemporary pop culture. His books, although highly recommended, are a pale reflection of the inspiration and mental quickness on display in these recordings, and arguably h
is writing is the most effective when it's closest to his speaking voice (as in The Archaic Revival). As a speaker he works best in a semi-informal workshop format, in front of a graspable audience, and at least to my ears, he was most at his forte prior to the breakthrough into the mainstream that occurred in the early 1990s. In formal lecture situations, a certain academic stiffness creeps in that stifles his natural stream of consciousness. In the '90s, as the rave and cyberpunk sub-cultures embraced him, he would occasionally seem to adjust his persona to the scene he was in, which probably was fun for him, but may seem to veer too close to Tim Leary territory on occasion. In any event, most of my favorite McKenna recordings date from the mid-1980s.

One way to approach Terence McKenna's oeuvre is to regard it as play, on an advanced yet reasonably accessible intellectual level, with a distinct set of unorthodox building blocks. The blocks are arranged in different ways and sequences, brought in and out of focus, rotated, tossed in the air and elegantly brought to rest. Using a fishing metaphor, McKenna encouraged psychedelic explorers to search for "medium-sized ideas"; novel notions which are significant, but not big enough to drag you down into the metaphysical depths.

In addition to those colorful idea "blocks" discussed above, one needs to consider classic alchemy, a field from which McKenna drew vast amounts of inspiration. In the La Chorrera experiment of True Hallucinations, the alchemical concept of 'the philosopher's stone' is invoked (at times via the latin 'lapis philosophorum') as a key perspective of the spiritual-cerebral breakthrough outlined by the McKenna brothers. Alchemy was an early love of Terence, and his reading in that esoteric area was deep and wide, even by his own bookish standards.

Additional to the attractive mystique and obscurity of alchemy, there is no doubt that its antithetical status to conventional science raised McKenna's interest. While alchemical terminology and references are downplayed in the later phases of his work (perhaps because their obscurity alienated his audience), the attacks upon science became more pronounced, if anything. This was a timely quest, emerging out of the shadows of doubt that quantum physics, evolutionary biology and chaos theory threw upon the presumed 'facts' of 19th century science; a similar paradigm was popularized via modern works such as Fritjof Capra's The Tao Of Physics. But even with the emergence of New Physics, McKenna would continue to question most ideas cherished by the scientific community, unless they seemed to confirm his own notions in some unexpected way. Science, as it had evolved from Descartes and Newton, was linked by McKenna to 'dominator' culture, and yet another facet of the general descent of the human project into a rationalist, reductionist, materialist, prison of the mind. One might detect a personal undertone to McKenna's attacks on science, which may derive from early career frustrations. Towards the end of True Hallucinations, he describes visiting a highly respected professor of biology to present the theory he and brother Dennis had developed at La Chorrera, and being dismissed in the most unambiguous way. Although littered with interesting notions and phrases, the critique of science is not one of McKenna's most stimulating blocks of play, especially not when coupled with his increasingly pessimistic view of western society in general. Arguably, he came too near the trap of 'too big ideas that drag you into the deep' that he himself had warned about.

As his star was rising, McKenna would be exposed to a number of in-vogue ideas that were more or less connected to his work. Sometimes the fit would be excellent, as in the merger of feminist anthropology (via Riane Eisler's The Chalice And The Blade) with his 'stoned ape' theory, to form the more comprehensive theory presented in Food Of The Gods. On the other hand, McKenna's embracement of virtual reality technology seems trendy and ill-advised in retrospect, although he was certainly not the only big brain to be enthused by the early promises of VR around 1990.

McKenna's ambivalent relationship to DMT falls between these two poles of influence; while he seems to draw vital inspiration from his encounters with the 'jewelled self-dribbling basketballs', his multimedia performances from '90s rave events where DMT is praised do not offer much beyond Learyesque 'turn on, tune in, drop out' cheerleading. His personal, highly specific experiences with the drug would be recounted in detail, even though (as a survey of DMT trip reports shows) the focus on linguistic creativity that he describes was hardly typical.  In smaller forums, he would sometimes suggest that DMT was 'simply too much', at other times it was described as the center of the hallucinogenic mandala. DMT is a rare case where McKenna couldn't find a clearly stated position, which in itself may say something about this extreme psychedelic.

Looking at influences, a few more names need to be discussed. James Joyce was a much-loved companion to Terence McKenna, Finnegans Wake in particular. Joyce first pops up, like so much else, at La Chorrera back in 1971, where brother Dennis proclaimed that a couple of hens strolling around the small village were in fact James and Nora Joyce! Beside the dynamic and unorthodox ideas about language, there is an Irish, bardic connection between the two that Terence would refer to with some delight.  Related to Joyce we also find Marshall McLuhan, who McKenna would laud even though McLuhan had disappeared into foggy memory. When McLuhan was rediscovered in the 1990s, McKenna had already been championing him for a decade. He learned a lot from the Canadian media theorist, both in terms of ideas and terminology. This infatuation with McLuhan is very much McKenna; it's unconcerned with mainstream trends (i e: 'McLuhan is passé'), it's productive, and it's ultimately prescient.

Ethnobotany is a frequently used tool in the Terence McKenna workshop, and one which he applied with effortless delight. His brother Dennis would become a highly respected authority in the field (still active today) and must have been a vital sparring partner over the years.

Terence's ability to rattle off complex taxonomies and molecular structures in spontaneous Q & A situations illuminates one of the unique properties of his public persona, the seemingly limitless and near-photographic memory. Fine points between several types of shamanic plants, exact years and even dates for some obscure event in the Italian renaissance, long verbatim passages from Shakespeare, can all be summoned and presented on the spur of the moment.

Beyond his eloquence, the exceptional memory, and a profound learning in matters both esoteric and exoteric, the most important attribute of Terence McKenna may have been his fearlessness. Lack of prejudice and an openness to new ideas is invigorating, but beneath these qualities was a more profound drive that insisted upon novelty, and demanded change. McKenna was easily bored, and his somewhat controversial dismissal of classic Eastern spiritual paths (as opposed to his own tryptamine shamanism) seems to have come about from impatience as much as a lifelong interest in hallucinogens. Fortunately, boredom wouldn't allow him to cheat on his rational skepticism -- he described himself as the most skeptic member in the La Chorrera expedition -- and even while his fertile creativity was soaring, he kept a steady watch on himself, which is why there is such a consistency and internal logic among his ideas.

This lack of fear also makes him a typical representative of his generation. It's easy today to forget that Terence McKenna was a child of the '60s as much as any elder hallucinogen spokesman out there. When he emerged out of obscurity in the mid-1980s, the self-confidence and iconoclasm of the Baby-boomers was there, but their pomposity and naiveté were not. Looking constantly towards what lay ahead, he rarely spoke of the '60s, or hippies, and he treated the softened 1970s spiritualism with light sarcasm. Due to this, he seamlessly bridged the gap to the jaded, irony-fed indivualists of Generations X and Y, and will probably continue to bridge gaps as the 2000s roll on. In one of the later lectures he summed up his work: "Reason, but a willingness to explore the edges, has been the method".

© Patrick Lundborg, 2008

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